The only word that kept running through my head was DEFEAT

complete and utter defeat. SOUNDly Defeated upon my return to newYork. Big city of dreams. To get back to a favorite topic:::fengshui= or room_re_arrange_ment. Which is , guess what, what I just did. This arrangement I call "THE OPEN MIND"
not to be confused with "THE OPEN MINE_SHAFT". It looks like this

_________________________window________rugonboxes_lamp
desk
_________________________________________ g _______________ p
_________________________________________ r _______________ i
bedbedbedbedbedbedbedbedbed ________a _______________ c
bedbedbedbedbedbedbedbedbed________ss ______________ t
bedbedbedbedbedbedbedbedbed ________mat ____________ u
bedbedbedbedbedbedbedbedbed ________________________ r
_________________________________________ --------------e
b _________________________________________ ------------ s
o
o
k
shelf
-------------------------------door--------closet

its actually much smaller (my room is (much smaller than this reperesntation)
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